It’s been what, 2-3 years since I’ve looked at this blog. And I probably would have forgotten it even existed if it were not for my friends sharing their high school Xangas, Livejournals, etcetc amongst us for a good chuckle :)

Rereading this blog, I’m filled with a sense of wonder, guilt, and affection. It’s amazing how much a person can change over 3 year’s time. Back then, I was a soon-to-be high school graduate with no idea what future will hold. People around me seemed to be getting on bullet trains to success while I was rolling along lazily on a trolly. Where am I at now? On a one-way track to becoming a pharmacist!

If I could go back in time to meet my high school self, she would probably diss me for not following my dream of becoming a genetic researcher with 3 Nobel Prizes under my belt (haha yes, that was honestly my dream. Typical Asian, huh?). Then I would diss right back, acting all grown-up and preaching job security over fantasies.

Which is where the guilt comes in. Because I feel a teeny bit like I’ve let my past self down.

Since small, I was someone who would dream big (to the point where I should’ve taken some Seroquel prn. Yep, just flaunting my drug smarts). I’ve dreamed about becoming a manga artist, a rock star, genetic researcher, and if you read my first post here, even a professional blogger. I’m not saying a pharmacist is not a respectable job, because it is! And it’s the perfect mix of science and practicality and patient interaction, which I love. But… have you ever seen a pharmacist win the Grammy’s? The Nobel Prize? Heck, they barely even have a cameo role in TV shows like House or Grey’s Anatomy!

But then this might just be a part of growing up. Dreams will be toned down to normality; freedom will be replaced with responsibility; and soon I’ll be your average ‘adult’ doing adult things like 40hour/week job, keeping close eye on husband’s pocket money, and hunting for cheap cabbages. I’m sorry my past self – life is just too damn different than mangas and dramas.

And as you can tell, I’ve become a bit more bitter over the years too, which I really really hate! All these posts are so happy and fun to read (sorry for the lack of humbleness), and I can feel the charisma of the happy little joshikousei writing it. In contrast, I’m sure it’s been a yawn to read this uncreative post (and I’ve realized my sentences have become more rigid? No traces left of IB English HL skillz). That’s why I feel an overwhelming affection for this blog (and for WP to have kept it alive). The words in each post trickle into me, bringing back the fragments of my past and the girl I once was (…like a wetting agent. Sorry, it’s midterm time haha). Through this blog, I had the chance to meet again the little Nerdypants self, which would have never happened otherwise since I don’t keep a diary *sigh*.

Ok, enough of this boring sentimental rant! Just gonna say thank you (I don’t even know who to direct it to) for giving me this experience :)

And as a little parting thing, I found this draft saved from 2010 that never went public. It’s incomplete and not very interesting, but since my younger self wrote it, I’ll do the honors of posting it.

Alrighty then, see you!


Nerdypants, 2012.


So I know it’s been a while since my scandelous confession about my polygamous affairs with the Japanese hotties.

I think now is the time to reveal my newest and most lusvicious lover– Hwang Chansung from 2PM (and Dirty Eyed Girls =D)

Basic Profile
Name: Hwang Chansung
Nickname: Perry, PwangGa
Job: Singer, Actor, Model
Birthdate: February 11, 1990
Height: 184cm
Weight: 75 kg
Schooling: –
Blood Type: B
Hobbies: Listening to music, gaming, working out
Specialty: Taek Kwon Do, Kumdo
Ideal Woman: Someone with kind eyes
Religion: Atheist
Favorite Food: I’m not a picky eater.
Label: JYP Entertainment



It’s time for me to get down to business. In the next three weeks, projects, tests, and interviews counting for 30% of 2 years will be happening.

So as a good nerdypants, I open up a Word document, type in my name and IB candidate number, make the font style Times New Roman size 12, and turn to Jelly Battle.

So what is this jam jelly jello Mello thing? Well, it just happens to be the MOST ADDICTING GAME EVER =0
It’s a multiplayer game (so you’ll feel that more accomplished kicking a real person’s behind. Well, virtually.) where you are a jelly person with the goal to mush the 3 other jelly people playing. To win, you have to hop from one box to another (some, for example, are to nuke the others like Hiroshima has never seen, fry them with laser beams, and just plain whack a jelly near you with a handbag–which, interestingly, seems to be the most powerful attack).

Even though at first I was like “whaaa…this is so n00b, I have to do math,”
soon it became “omgwtflol you just got pwned by nerdypants with a handbag, I have to do math.”

Yeah, so for anyone wanting to procrastinate, check this game out and you won’t be disappointed :)

aaaarrgh I still have to do math.

Happy New Year!

For all you Johnny’s fangirls out there, here’s a link to this year’s Johnny’s Countdown performance:


Start your year off with a nosebleed like me! =)

This year, Arashi is the MC! Aand each of the awesome smexy Jonny’s groups present their debut songs:

kinkikids (硝子の少年) [their voices are still amazing ~]

KAT-TUN (RealFace) [OMG Jin’s tongue click <33]

関ジャニ∞ Kanjani8 (浪花いろは節)[such a fun song!]



タッキー&翼 Takki & Tsubasa (卒業)

HaySayJUMP (UltraMusicPower)


嵐 Arashi (A・RA・SHI)[so nostalgic!]

Other songs that I was SO SO SO happy seeing were:

Arashi-Love So Sweet
Shuuji to Akira-Seishun Amigo [THE BEST EVER!!!]
V6-Ai Nanda [Junichi is still so hot <3]
Takki-Ai Kakumei

And they even did a Johnny’s medley with every group singing!

Also watch out for…

Arashi singing a Kanjani8 song
V6 singing Arashi’s One Love
NEWS singing Kinki kids’ Aisareruyori Aishitai
KAT-TUN singing NEWS’s Kibou

I loved the whole show and every song!

Which part was your favorite? :)

About this blog…

Well, so far I’ve done some experimenting with this blog. I made some posts about my life and some that are I guess more informational (?) like the crafts page.
…And I’ve found that writing informative posts are so tiring! :0
Especially the last one for which I had to search up and embed and photoshop a bunch of things. Sure I got like double the number of visitors (thanks!) but with being a Nerdypants (IB) and all, I don’t think I can last like this.


I’ll just keep this blog personal. :)
Of course I’ll rant about kawaii and kakkoii stuff and you might find odd bits of info and gossips here and there, but it’ll all be on whim.
Also, I just might start making this blog more R-rated/profane/explicit because sadly I’m not a Mr. nice Nerdypants. Nor innocent.
At all.

Aaaand I also might start blabbing in Japanese randomly. When that happens, for the non-Japanese speakers, don’t take it personally. It’s just me… Fangirling, probably.
And everybody knows fangirling is only fun for the fangirls, but not for the clueless bystanders.

So yeah.


I just saw Yamapi’s performance on HEY!HEY!HEY! Music Champ 2009.11.16 and I noticed that there are quite a few Kpop-like things to it.

First of all, LOOK AT THE HANDKERCHEIF AROUND HIS WAIST! Yes–it’s Rain’s signiture item for his Rainism performances!

Also, look at Loveless at 1:21 where Yamapi flips open his blazer (yum) just like Rain at 1:41!

Next, Yamapi’s hand movement at 1:16 reminds me of B2ST’s Bad Girl move at 0:36

Ok, now look a few seconds ahead where Yamapi leans sideways and sings “Saigo wa egao de say goodbye” and compare it to Taeyang’s move at 2:22 in Wedding Dress

Here’s the comparison:

Actually, Loveless in general gives me the same feel as Wedding Dress–they both have slow, soft melodies and stiff/clean dance moves. Oh and did I mention they have the same number of backup dancers?

I’m not accusing my dear Yamapi of plaigiarism here, but is it true he’s being influenced by Korean pop? What do you guys think?

My Japanese Lovers

The reason I had said that I’m Japanese by heart is because it is there where I had spent most of my childhood. That does not mean I love Japan any more than I love my motherland, but what it does mean is that I have been influenced by the Japanese culture a lot. I find their fashion to be glamarous, their pop culture such as manga and anime to be super awesome, and their celebrities–what’s the phrase?–SMOKING HOT.

There have been about 3 phases I underwent in regards to Japanese men (in chronological order):

Phase 1. The anime/manga guys:

Conan from Meitantei Conan (Detective Conan)-He was probably my first love. Gosh, I was crazy about his face, his voice, his wit, and above all his Nerdypants glasses.

Sesshoumaru from Inuyasha–Ok, I have this sick obsession with guys with long, silky hair. Of course Sesshoumaru’s brother Inuyasha has long hair/mane too, but come on, semi-dog versus full-fleged dangerous(ly) sexy beast?  I rest my case.

Deathnote has got to be the best manga ever written/drawn! The plotline is better than any Hollywood movie and the art is fantastic. I first fell for L, the super genious yet weird detective. I was so in love that I even cosplayed as him for Halloween one year.
Oh, just a shoutout to whoever planning to use a Sharpie to line your eyes–it doesn’t come off for a week.

My greatest fictional lover yet is no doubt Mello–he’s so cute with his addiction to chocolate yet at the same time so sexy as the head of the mafia. And is it just me who likes his tight leather pants? ;)
This is an amazing fanart of Mello by a talented someone (counts as giving credits, right?):


Then as I got older and was introduced to more ehem smutty works, my tastes became something like this:

This is drawn by Shinjo Mayu, who is one of the best smutty artists out there.
Since I wanted to keep this post PG, I decided not to put any explicit stuff– but seriously, how can you keep from fatacizing all sorts of ‘situations’ just from the bad-boy/devilish smile? ;)

Phase 2. The REAL mainstream prettyboys.

These probably came before the smutty manga guys so in a sense, these two phases are overlapping.
In Japan, there’s this massively famous agency called Johnny’s where boys who haven’t reached puberty are scouted and trained to become back-up dancers for their older, post-debut groups. There are countless boys hired annually by the agency, but there are only a few that are able to actually form a unit/group and become famous. Amongst them, the groups that I was nuts about were:

Kinki Kids

From the group name, you’re probably like, “WTF, child pornography promotion?!” but rest assured, the group has nothing to do with that unless you count seducing 7-year-girls like myself back then with their sensual singing and flashes of chest during concerts as sexual violation.
But yeah, they were the first boyband that I fangirled over, and even now I sometimes watch their reality or talk shows. Haha, the guy on the left, Domoto Tsuyoshi, is hilarious–he’s so sarcastic! Also, it never fails to amaze me that no matter what Domoto Koichi (right)’s real age is, he looks forever 21 ($5 for the AD).

The only other Johnny’s group that surpassed my obsession with Kinki was NEWS

My love progressed like this:

  1. Yamapi–We all start out with him, right? ;)
  2. Massu–I loved his smile and chubby cheeks! Having a super ripped body underneath just quadrupled my love for him.
  3. Tegoshi–I started noticing him more after the Tegomassu subunit formed. I couldn’t believe I overlooked this cutie for so long!
  4. Yamapi–After watching Nobuta wo Produce then Kurosagi, I was like, he’s SO the hottest.
  5. Koyama–Ok, he is by far the most interesting and outgoing person in the group and I adore his fashion sense! There was one show where each member had to make up a Kokuhaku (pickup line) to say to a girl, and Koyama’s was: “Look into my eyes–I know they are small, but they only see you.”
  6. Ryo–At first, I found him kind of scary because he seemed a little stingy. BUT after I watched him in One Litre of Tears and Last Friends, I was so impressed with his acting skills and good looks that I fell in love <3
    Well, actually a lot of people became scared of Ryo after Last Friends because he seemed so into the character, but I think it just comes to show how much effort he puts into his work and how he can adapt to portraying different characters, not only the sweet schoolboy.

Phase 3. Visual Kei Bands

Visual Kei Bands are bands that not only care about their music, but also their outward appearances, hence the name.
After I had outgrown the prettyboys, I was looking for something more mature and heavy. I started with the more mainstream bands like L’arc~en~Ciel and X Japan but soon moved to more indies like

SID–Mao, the vocalist caught my eye with his looks but touched my heart with his voice <3

Here is my favorite song by them called Otegami (Letter):

Then I came across none other than The Gazette. The first song I heard was Filth in the Beauty–a pretty hardcore song for my untrained ears–and I thought, “Ew, this is like Billy Talent Japanese Style,” and I left them be for a few weeks until I came across this song:

The song is called Guren, and even though the music video scared me a little the first time I watched it and the meaning of the song is sad and explicit, the song soon became my bedtime lullaby–Ruki’s voice is so deep and soothing that it calms me down even after stressing over TOK essays.
A Visual Kei group that can match Ruki’s seductive, devilish voice is Plastic Tree–Ryuutaro’s voice is beautiful in another way: very soft and angelic. Also, if you are a fan of L from Deathnote, you should see Ryuutaro cosplaying :)

I intended this post to be about Japanese vs. Korean idols, but I guess I over-ranted about the Japanese side ;;
Haha, I’ll leave the Korean part for later, when my hands become less cramped :)

Handmade Crafts

Yay! First post =D

In Japan right now, there’s a huge boom in buying second-hand clothes and making DIY clothing or crafts. It’s referred to as  ‘Recessionista.’

I know that there are many many many English site that exhibit and even have tutorials on DIY projects, but the Japanese make theirs look better than store-bought.

From super kawaii toys…

to romantic hair ties (ie. chou-chou)…

to Hime-kei (Princess-style) butterfly bags. You name it.

These three crafts were all posted on an amazing Japanese site where you can find tutorials on about any craft you can dream of. Even if you can’t read Japanese, you should still check it out as you can get tons of ideas from the photos alone!

There are also girls who rummage through 古着屋 [furugi-ya] or second-hand stores and remake the clothings they found into new, original outfits. There was even an episode of Tokyo Kawaii TV featuring the Recessionistas!

As for me who has never taken a sewing class before, I admire these talented girls with all my heart. But like I have mentioned, as a Nerdypants, and a procrastinating on at that, I have no time to learn how to make these crafts. =(